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mania

imagine thinking you’re going crazy...


your mania ruins everything for you


friendships


relationships


connections


life


but, no


your heart telling you no


mind telling you yes


brain telling you to end it all


imagine getting that small wave of happiness just for the great mania to disrupt your peace


god, please let me be me


mania is the enemy 


love


care


connection 


peace


Girl, I loved you


But I didn’t love myself 


Mania loves me and it has me in a chokehold 


That wasn’t me back there


I was unaware of what I said and did


I can’t take back things now, but I’m trying to contain myself 


To get back to good health 


So I can love one day again


Girl, I cared for you


Even if I was too passionate 


To let go of my trauma


It still haunts me forever 


I felt we lost our connection 


Once you started telling me about other dudes


As it left me uncomfortable 


From there I didn’t want you


In my sight


In my phone


Out of my head


i hope I’ll lay for bad


To not see you in my nightmare 


I just want peace


As I’ve matured off trauma and stepped away from the streets


Please respect my grief


As I don’t condone trash


That you have laid upon yourself 


Goodbye


Mania is my beholder now. 




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